Thursday, September 22, 2011
El Fin..The End...
All good things must come to an end. Yup, it's true. But that doesn't mean another good thing can't begin and enrich our lives. As you may have noticed, my blogging has been stalled a little in recent weeks. One of the reasons is obvious, no more ads on my blogsite. Damn Google didn't appreciate all those clicks you guys were doing to help me out and banned me from AdSense. The other reason my writing has slowed down is because I've been going through a series of interviews. I received an offer recently and will begin shortly. That's right, Tito is no longer unemployed and another statistic during these difficult economic times. Mooching off my friends will be a distant memory. No, I don't think so. I kind of liked the generosity of friends and would love to continue being on the receiving end. But in all seriousness, it's good to be back in the ranks of the working stiffs. I don't begin until October so I still have a little time to enjoy my self-imposed vacation that went from a 6 month sabbatical to a 2 1/2 year journey of self discovery, rekindling of relationships, and most importantly, a greater appreciation of life and balance. Much of it due to my loving wife that supported me the whole way through and my family and my caring friends that continued to stroke my ego and never once disrespected my position as an unemployed homemaker (at least not to my face.)
I can delve into how f'd up I was when I resigned my position but it's not all that important in the whole scheme of things. My friends who are closest to me know what I went through. The important thing is that I made it through some dark times and the past couple of years have been very productive. I was able to take a step back or rather step more slowly and realize that life has so much more to offer than going through the daily grind only to feel like that hamster at Petsmart on the wheel. Yes, I've smelled the coffee and stopped to smell the roses. I will continue to do that regardless of work. I have come to peace with myself and have felt that I've been in a good place for a while. Had I continued to work, I have no idea who or what I'd be but I can guarantee that I'd be nowhere close to the man I am today. I have no regrets.
I've been and seen places that my old self would've denied because my conventional wisdom (aka work can't live w/o me or I can't afford that) would kick in. I've accomplished things that I normally would have paid someone to do for me. I've learned to use my hands and my tools. No one is more ecstatic that me to finally use something in my toolbox I bought 12 years ago for the first time. I got to cook and I made things I've always wanted to make. Not all were successful but as my mom said the other day, my second batch was 100 times better than the first one. I did a kitchen and bath remodel, built a shed from scratch, put in sprinklers, gardened and harvested my own fruits and even grew chiles from seeds. I've taken classes and learned quite a bit about life's hurdles that may never be conquered and their consequences. I've reconnected with old friends, made new friends, and lost some along the way. I've coached and even won a championship. And I've begun to write again.
I think many of the things that bring me joy have to do with creating and learning, and teaching. It's those things that I did at previous jobs that I rarely did at home because life was consumed by work. It was taking a break albeit a long one to realize that it's so much more fulfilling to create and enjoy the fruits of labor in my own castle.
Yup, working is going to put a small crimp in things but if all goes to plan, I will continue to do the things I love. This time with some cash flow coming in. So as I end this chapter in my life, a new one begins with a resolve to maintain balance and to continue to create both at work and at home.
Like in all books, I've got to acknowledge certain people as I close this one out. First, my wife whose support, love, words of encouragement and most of all tolerance through these years have made me a better person. I love you with all my heart.
To my family especially my parents. Thank you for all your support.
And to my friends, thank you for the friendship and support and the positive words of encouragement and for continuing to pump my ego. Those of you that are closest to me and you know who you are-I can't express my gratitude enough, Through thick or thin, you were always there.
And to God, even though I walked through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil as you are with me. Thank you for all my blessings and give me strength and guidance to do your will.
So it all begins again. Damn the torpedoes!!! Full Steam Ahead.